At Joe's, I mean. I know we were all kind of out of it but I should have checked in more. I didn't really think about it the way I should have. I don't know why.
If it wasn't Joe Or you weren't comfortable Or whatever Would you say something? Even if you thought it was the thing that would make me happiest on Earth. If you didn't want to do something would you tell me no
now I gotta wonder what sick twisted depraved shit might make you the happiest on earth because when I think about you being happy I think about your attic when we were kids and thundercats?
not so much leather daddy, chaps and studs, my safe word is harmonica type stuff
Like, I always had this image? It's complicated. Let me tell you how awesome it is to be in your twenties and be haunted by this vision of an adorable 13-year-old. Not like I was itching to volunteer for the cub scouts or youth pastor.
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Are you ok with what happened?
At Joe's, I mean.
I know we were all kind of out of it but I should have checked in more.
I didn't really think about it the way I should have. I don't know why.
I didn't set it up.
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But I'll be honest it's not the weirdest thing that's happened to me here.
Is that what you're into? Because if it's what you want I mean, I can give it a try, Eds but I'm not perfect and Joe and I have some history.
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I don't know what I'm into. I mean obviously it was ( this is so much more embarrassing to talk about than just do good or whatever. But
do you do that a lot? Agree with things just because I ask you?
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and no
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i was just surprised by it
joe and i, well-
let's just say we've been together enough to be familiar with it
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( welp )
If it wasn't Joe
Or you weren't comfortable
Or whatever
Would you say something? Even if you thought it was the thing that would make me happiest on Earth. If you didn't want to do something would you tell me no
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because when I think about you being happy I think about your attic when we were kids
and thundercats?
not so much leather daddy, chaps and studs, my safe word is harmonica type stuff
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I'm trying to be serious, you know.
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babe
that was circumstantial
i know how to tell you no
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I don't want to force you into things without even realizing it. That's so fucked up.
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I'm not some manipulative psycho. I don't want that.
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i know you're not manipulative.
psycho?? that's debatable.
but if it makes you feel better, i promise.
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It does. Thanks. :)
...Is your safeword harmonica?
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Like, I always had this image? It's complicated.
Let me tell you how awesome it is to be in your twenties and be haunted by this vision of an adorable 13-year-old. Not like I was itching to volunteer for the cub scouts or youth pastor.
maybe
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...i'll keep that in mind.
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but it didn't make sense and psych help was good for nothing
oh that's your Id Richie your inner child have you gotten in touch with little Richie lately
wow okay
little bit kinky underneath the whole auditor vibe, huh?
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Um.
You brought it up?
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like I didn't know
in what world would Eddie Kaspbrat get me to say harmonica?
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I don't know! It's not like we've exchanged "sex interest" lists or whatever.
(...Please don't ask me to do that, that's so embarrassing.)
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IDK if the past tense flies for you yet
sex interest lists? that's an idea right there.
I might have to ask you to do that.
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That's not a real thing people do.
How would anyone even know what to write
It doesn't matter because I'm not going to do it anyway but still.
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it might be.
you know ... things you like.
things you think you might like.
thinks you might want to try to see if you like.
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( ha )
Okay.
So.
If you were going to write one of those things
what do you think you might put on it?